Countdown

•December 22, 2009 • 4 Comments

 

2009 has been a tremendous year.  I will be a little sad to see it go. 

In February of this year I was given my first digital camera.  These photos are among my first.  The camera, this year, the Rio Grande bosque, have all enriched my experiences in ways I couldn’t have imagined.  It is good to be in love with life and to feel that life is loving right back.

2009 has been a year of reunions.  It seems like everyone I know has reconnected with old loves and long lost friends.  People I thought I’d lost to stormy seas years ago have resurfaced.  And in the midst of economic turmoil, the American spirit of hope and strength has blossomed.  People are remembering who they are and what they are about.

2009.  A year of joy.  A year of tremendous gifts. 

I’m ready for the countdown.

@ the Turtle Pond…

•December 19, 2009 • 1 Comment

Here are some shots of the turtle pond at the Rio Gande Nature Center, taken October 9th through yesterday, December 17.  Me & Clay were lucky enough to be on the bike path when a late October snow storm hit and turned the bosque to magic.  I hope to gather a whole year of images at the turtle pond and create a montage.  I’ve always loved those time-lapse films.  I guess this will be the closest I’ll get to that for now.

The Ruffians

•December 17, 2009 • 2 Comments

 

 

 

Curious Tracks

 

 

 

     Bruce is sitting on his bike, swatting at a cyclone of rice flies.  Rice flies are gnats the size of houseflies.  They swarm in funnel-shaped clouds on summer evenings.  They’re harmless but annoying and when they’re out a kid knows to keep the mouth shut.  Rice flies always seem to hang at face level. 

     The light spilling from the Palomino’s front window outlines Bruce in gold.  Without a word the three of us steer toward the boat launch.  Tucker shifts a pack on his back and checks to make sure we’re not being followed.  Inside the pack is everything needed for a plaster cast of our dinosaur track: a jar full of water, a beat up plastic bucket, wooden stir sticks and a plastic bag full of dry plaster-of-Paris. 

     By the time we hide our bikes at the boat launch, Bettina and Booger have uncovered the tracks.  Bettina’s black dress blends into the night.  Her bright hair makes her look like a head floating in shadows.  Booger has on homemade camouflage.  My guess is he’s mixed shoe polish with spaghetti sauce on his t-shirt.  I hope the fresh mud he’s smeared on his forehead, cheeks, and chin isn’t from where he’s standing.  Bettina grins when she sees us.

     “I have to be in bed by nine o’clock every night, without exception.”  Bettina is radiant.  “I stuffed the bedcovers and climbed out the window.”

     “Have you ever snuck out before?”  I ask.

     “Never.”  Bettina shakes her head and smiles.

     As soon as Bruce sees Bettina he trips over a log.  He’s church-combed his hair again.  He bounces up and pretends the trip didn’t happen.  I’ve seen this sort of thing before.  It’s as bad as rabies.  Bruce can’t help himself.  He’s in love. 

     Booger laughs and chews beef jerky.  He smacks his hands on his legs and leans over the track, ready for combat.  I hold the flashlight and Tucker empties the pack.  He sets his materials out in the correct order and pours water into the bucket. 

     “One lake monster footprint.”  Booger throws his hands up.  “You’d think it would have more than one foot.”

     “We’re just collecting evidence,” says Tucker.  Booger stands on one foot and hops in place.

     “Shhh!”  I smack Booger’s leg.  “I hear something.”

     The whistle of a grebe curls through the tule reeds and ripples out over the black water.  A fish leaps high and lands with a rowdy splash.  Over the chirping crickets and bellowing bullfrogs comes another “shhh”, but not from any of us.   We form a human wall around Tucker, but it’s too late.  A spotlight turns the night into day.  As soon as I cover my eyes, a rain of junk begins.  Empty cans, stinky old shoes, rotten vegetables, spoiled eggs and things I couldn’t describe even if I wanted to. 

     Our attackers howl.  I recognize the scream that shatters eardrums: Constance.  A shiver slams through my body and explodes out the top of my head.  I drop the flashlight, claw up rocks, and aim for the spotlight.  If only I had my slingshot!  Constance and her ogres go crazy.  Twice as much garbage comes flying at us.  I’m completely blind,  I pick up whatever I can grab and throw it. 

     Suddenly the spotlight shuts off.  There’s a triumphant cheet and the last piece of trash is launched.  Truck tires peel out of the parking lot.  A filthy hunk of plywood smashes onto the rocks.  When we can see again, the mystery of the monstrous footprint is solved.  The wood was cut in the shape of a dinosaur print and nailed to a greasy piece of two-by-four.  This is what made the track.

     Tucker sags.  He empties the water bucket and shoves the materials back into his pack.  It hurts to watch.  More than anyone, I know how much he wanted the track to be the real thing.  The five of us walk along the lakeshore.  Nobody says a peep.  I feel lightheaded now that I’m cooling down.  One by one we plop onto the sand and look out into the blackness.  On the far side of the lake I can see the twinkling lights of Eden.  Tucker sighs and pushes sand up with his feet. 

     “You stink.”  Booger sniffs at Bruce.  Slimy apple peelings mixed with gloppy brown slime has replaced Bruce’s church hairdo.  Bruce points at Booger and laughs.  Rancid cooked spinach blended with what used to be a peanut butter and jelly sandwich is stuck at an angle on top of Booger’s head.  It looks like a little flat hat.  Booger looks down the front of his shirt.  The bright yolk of a rotten egg drips from his homemade spy shirt. 

     “I stink?”  Bruce runs into the shallows.  “You’re the one who smells, my friend!”  He churns the water and sprays Booger.

     Bettina, her hair the color of mustard and ketchup, jumps in with Bruce.  Booger bends over and shoots a ridiculously high geyser of water into the air.  I can’t resist.  I leap in and splash everyone.  Tucker’s the last one in.  It’s a relief to see him laugh.  Bettina shakes water off her glasses and flops onto the beach like a fish.  I sit cross-legged next to her.  The night is warm and clear.  The stars hang right over our heads. 

     “Look at me.”  Bettina pinches her dress so it pulls away from her skin with a loud sucking sound.  “My mom will kill me if she sees this.”  She falls back on the sand.  “This is the most fun I’ve ever had!”

     “Better than Christmas?”  I ask.

     “Much.”  Bettina grins.  “If I get grounded, it’s worth it.”

     “Are your parents strict?”  I ask.

     “Terribly.”  Bettina adjusts her glasses.

     “Is that why you always wear dresses?”

     “Isn’t it sickening?”  Bettina looks at me.  “All I’ve ever worn are dresses.  I’m not permitted to wear pants.”

     “Last one in is a moldy rotten egg!”  Tucker taps me on the head and runs for the boat dock. 

     “You’re it!”  Booger pokes my arm.  I jump up and sprint after the boys.  Booger’s fast, but I’m faster.

     “It!”  I cannonball off the dock before he can tag me back.  The water is cool and wonderful.  We dip and float and flip like seals.  The garbage Constance and her pals threw washes off in the clean water.  One after the other, we climb out to rest on the dock, dripping wet and happy again.

     We lay on our backs looking up at endless stars.  We’re pointing out different constellations when a slow-moving vehicle pulls into the parking lot.  We hit the deck and get as flat as possible, just in case the bullies have returned.  Somebody pokes my ribs.  Pretty soon everyone is jabbing and being jabbed and trying to keep silent.  A car inches its way into the space closest to the beach where we were sitting before.  We watch, quiet as mice, still as statues.  Two men get out of the car.  Even in this darkness I can tell who they are.

     “It’s the sheriff,”  I whisper.  Two flashlight beams circle around.  The sheriff and his deputy step into the beach and walk to the water.  One of the men stops over the mystery-track. 

     “Boss, over here.”  Deputy Dick Parelli’s voice is low but clear.  Sheriff Marty Proud steps over the junk in his path and shines a beam of light into the other one.  The two men sound excited, but they’ve lowered their voices and we can’t hear what they’re saying. 

     “Let’s get closer.”  Tucker grips my arm.  He crabwalks off the dock.  It’s a good thing we hid our bikes in the bushes.  As long as we’re quiet the men won’t know we’re here. 

     A flashlight beam sweeps the parking lot and we freeze.  Booger looks about to leapfrog  Bruce.  Bettina’s glow-in-the-dark hands are covering her glow-in-the-dark hair.  I hold my breath.  The light moves to the shallows, exactly where the decapitated body was found.  Isn’t that strange?  The whole area was searched by four men today.  What could the sheriff and deputy be looking for under cover of a coal black night?  Sneaky.  Officers of the law don’t have to slink around when they’re on duty.  Unless they’re undercover.

     Or hiding something.

     The men mumble and wade into the water, searching and poking with long sticks.  We see every move they make because their flashlight reflects off the water.  They’re surrounded by a halo of light.  It glows against the underbrush and into the trees.  I feel like I’m watching a theater stage with two actors pulling something about the size and shape of a bowling ball from the lake. 

     We skitter across the parking lot and bunch up behind the black and white patrol car.  Our heads form a pyramid shape and peek out together. 

     “I’ll get it.”  Deputy Dick heads our way.

     We crunch down low.  He walks to the trunk and we waddle around to the front of the car.  We’re petrified.  I’m praying his lucky eye doesn’t see us.  That would be…awkward.  And we’d surely never find out what the two men put into the sack that Deputy Dick took from the trunk.  We let our breaths out at the same time.  Deputy Dick drops his keys and swings his head to look behind him.  I’m sure he’s heard us.  Tucker’s standing where the deputy was five seconds ago.  If he shines his light, we’re busted.

     Sheriff Proud hisses to hurry up and when he drops a big, roundish thing into the sack Deputy Dick grunts and swears it’s heavy as a cannonball.  Whatever it is, it’s important.  Deputy Dick wrestles it into a plastic bag. 

     “Evidence.”  Tucker whispers in barely a voice.  The men walk the beach, pulling and picking bits and pieces from bushes and the ground.

     “Ooh, wait.”  Deputy Dick plucks at Sheriff Proud’s poofy hair and pokes the eagle-egg sized bald spot.  “Looks like some kind of nest.”

     “Knock it off!”  Sheriff Proud smacks his deputy’s hand.  “We’re here for serious work.” 

     “Sorry, boss.”  Deputy Dick apologizes where Blackberry Creek runs into Obsidian Lake.  We huddle behind a handy bush about twenty feet from the men.

     “Well.”  Sheriff Proud scratches the naked spot on his head.  He clicks his tongue on his piano key teeth and sucks in air.  “Best stash it in the hotel.”

     We know he means the old hotel.  It was a fancy resort back when movies were black and white and silent.  The hotel was beautiful then, a palace.  Famous people came all the way from Hollywood to stay in it.  But that was a long time ago.  Now it’s a decomposing ghost mansion.  The only guests are bats and skunks and owls and creepy-crawlies.  And soon, a gross severed head.

     But why hide the head of a murdered man in the old Triumph Hotel?  Why aren’t they taking it to the police station or the morgue?  Something’s not right here.  I smell fishiness.

    

 

Puddles & Butterflies

•December 14, 2009 • Leave a Comment

 

Happy Monday & boy it arrived quick–the weekend was just a wisp.  I think today is perfect for a picture of a puddle and a poem with blue butterflies in it.  My father took this photograph years ago.  I believe it is around Folsom, California, or somewhere around that Sacramento area.  The poem is by Mary Oliver, a magnificent poet whom I believe will endure for ages to come as one of the greatest poets who ever lived.  For some reason I can’t get the line breaks right here, there are ten stanzas.  I apologize.  You can search for this poem online and maybe find the proper version.  Mary Oliver lives and writes at the very tip of Cape Cod. 

Enjoy your Monday!  May it be bright and filled with joy.

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Spring Azures
 
 
In spring the blue azures bow down
at the edges of shallow puddles
to drink the black rain water.
Then they rise and float away into the fields.
Sometimes the great bones of my life feel so heavy,
and all the tricks my body knows-
the opposable thumbs, the kneecaps,
and the mind clicking and clicking-
don’t seem like enough to carry me through this world
and I think: how I would like
to have wings-
blue ones-
ribbons of flame.
How I would like to open them, and rise
from the black rain water.
And then I think of Blake, in the dirt and sweat of London-a boy
staring up through the window, when God came
fluttering up.
Of course, he screamed,
seeing the bobbin of God’s blue body
leaning on the sill,
and the thousand-faceted eyes.
Well, who knows.
Who knows what hung, fluttering, at the window
between him and darkness.
Anyway, Blake the hosier’s son stood up
and turned away from the sooty sill and the dark city-
turned away forever
from the factories, the personal strivings,
to a life of the imagination.

Honey Pie

•December 13, 2009 • 6 Comments

 

Today I made my very first pies from scratch with the pumpkins we grew last summer.  They turned out delicious.  The crust is storebought but I’m going to try my own soon.  I didn’t think I could do it until I saw that pie baking in the oven.  I had the same kind of feeling get when I go fishing and bring home supper.

I feel proud.  But more than that my heart is full.  Something on the planet gave to us so that we may continue living.  To be fed from a garden or by a wild caught fish is to connect with life in a conscious way, it feeds our awareness.  It’s a good thing.

We’re full of pie and spice over here.  Annabella’s topped off her slice with a shot of whipped cream.  There are more pumpkins in the basket and that means more pies in the near future.  I hope I can learn to make good pie crust.

Buffalo Medicine

•December 11, 2009 • 4 Comments

 

Summer of 1990.  Southern Oregon.  The Wild Animal Park in Winston.  We drove our white Toyota through acres and acres of countryside and stopped when we saw the buffalo on the road.  God it was magnificent.  He stuck his nose into the car to say hello, blew his great breath on our faces.  Fearless, calm.

Abundance, prayer, gratitude, praise for all that is in one’s life: this is part of buffalo’s medicine. 

And resilience and perseverence, beauty and strength.  There was great peace in the presence of buffalo that day at the park.  I would have loved to have seen those countless herds of bison moving over the Great Plains.  Heard the roar of their steps until my chest was full of thunder.  I wish I could remember breathing air laced with the scent of buffalo muscles and hides.  I imagine my soul being connected to all souls living now and the one that lived the past.  My soul galloping through the sweet grass alongside my woolly companions.

The Ruffians

•December 10, 2009 • Leave a Comment

 

Baloney

 

 

     The vines in Rebel’s yard are as thick as my arm.  Me and Tucker sweat under the hot sun and hack away.  We’d rushed from the boat launch to Rebel’s, eager to spring the news on her.  She wasn’t as enthusiastic about the monster track as she should have been. 

     Instead, Rebel scratches her woolly head and smiles like an Egytian sphinx.  She hands us rakes and hedge clippers and shoves us out into her ruined yard.  I glance at the small red mark on the door as I pass by.  I’m sure it’s a handprint.  And the six fingers?  Maritima.  What else could it be?  A symbol of the hidden island.

     I wish I could say what I’m thinking to Tucker.  Now I know how Rebel felt all those years ago when she’d seen the lake monster and couldn’t tell anyone.  I know one person I can ask about the fading mark on Rebel’s door: Corvus Picaro.  I rip at a ropey vine and twist it.

     “Is it a hoax, Tucker?  Those human tracks next to the monster’s seem… fishy.”  I stumble and the vine pulls free.

     “No.”  Tucker picks something out of his eye.  “I don’t think so.”  He kicks a load of yellow stalks to the rubbish pile.  “But even if it is, we still have to conduct a proper investigation.”  He won’t be changing his mind.

     Last night an impossible impossibility changed my life.  I can’t say exactly how.  I just know that the Magdalena Emerald Ventura who brought a straight-A report card to her dad yesterday isn’t the same person standing here whacking Rebel’s weed patch. 

     That raggedy crow that keeps tabs on me lands on Rebel’s roof.  He caws once and marches to the edge.  His shiny head turns and each eye gets a good look.  I can’t remember when I first saw him: I was a little kid, I know that much.  He’s grown up with me.  Most of the time I don’t even pay attention to him.  I smile and rake the growing mountain of weeds.  Tucker, who’s been digging up a stubborn tree stump, says it’s time for sodas.  He disappears into the house.  As soon as he goes inside, Crow waves his wings and says my name.

     “Mag-gie.”  Flap, flap.

     It’s not crystal-clear, but I know he’s talking to me.  I push the hair out of my face and move into the cool shade of the carport.  Crow says my rusty name again.

     “Mag-gie.”

     This could totally be part of a horror film.  A girl is climbing the monkey bars at school.  It’s lunch recess–a beautiful day, sunny, clear, full of happiness and security.  Suddenly, a tattered crow drops from the sky and knocks the girl off balance.  Her little friends scream.  The crow swoops again, shrieking the wobbling girl’s name, “Teresa, Teresa!”  It yanks out clumps of hair with each dive.  Pretty soon there’s a pile of hair clumps in the sand under the monkey bars and the bald girl–

     “Mag-gie,” Crow squawks for the third time.

     “What?!”  Speaking Crow is the most natural thing in the world, right?  My mouth twists into a crooked smile.  Crow cranks up his tin can voice box.

     “Fur-ree the bal-loon ones.”  Crow hops and his wings hook the air.  He sails toward the water and out of sight. 

     Balloon ones?  Is that what he said?  Furry the balloon ones?  See why I don’t have regular conversations with birds?  He’s made absolutely no sense.  Just a bunch of gibberish and then away he flies.  I scratch dirt out of my ear.

     “What are you doing?”  Tucker is holding a glass of iced soda in each hand and has a look of surprise wrapped around confusion on his face.  He’s frozen to one spot.

     The bamboo rake with it’s gap-tooth grin gets tangled in another vine.  My face scrunches with a look that says “uh, hello!  I’m working here and would appreciate some help with this ungodly mess.”  Tucker is suspicious.  He hands me a soda. 

     “Meet in the Palomino parking lot at dusk?”  I ask. 

     Tucker stares hard and nods.  “Rebel’s got sandwiches ready.”

     Oh boy!  I drop the rake and squint at the powdery red symbol when I trot past it.  Rebel eats baloney sandwiches.  And I mean she eats pretty much only baloney sandwiches.  The ones she’s made for lunch have slices of orange cheese as well.  They taste exactly like baloney and cheese sandwiches.

     Tucker’s quieter than usual.  After I chew and swallow I ask Rebel if she thinks the track we found was a hoax.

     “I can’t give you an accurate reply to that, Maggie.  I’ve never heard of the creature actually coming ashore.  From what I know the beast is aquatic, not terrestrial.”

     Tucker straightens up and looks at Rebel.  “What would you do if you found the tracks we did?” he asks.  Rebel laughs and the room warms up.

     “Why, I’d follow them, my boy!  I’d most certainly follow them.”  Rebel’s earrings look like tiny fossilized bones and when she laughs they dance.  When I get my ears pierced, I’ll wear earrings just like hers. 

     Rebel pays us each five dollars once we’ve cleared her front yard.  She sends us away with a reminder.  “Wear your Tears of Marlu.  Never take them off for any reason!”  Rebel smiles and waves.  Her earrings jump and sway.

     “How are we supposed to follow tracks that disappear into the water?”  I ask Tucker.

     “Maybe Rebel meant she’d use the tracks as a clue?”  Tucker is thoughtful.  “I’m not really sure, actually.”

    

      

    

Happiness in a Bowl

•December 9, 2009 • Leave a Comment

 

Here’s an exceptionally good and simple recipe for totally healthy soup.  It’s delicious!  especially on brisk December and January days.  Look for the vegetable bouillon at your local healthy food market (I buy the salt-free kind).  This soup will come out very creamy. 

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Creamless Cauliflower Soup

 

 

3 tbs. of unrefined safflower oil

2 heads of cauliflower

1 clove of garlic (more, if you’re a garlic lover)

1 onion

2 stalks of celery

6 cups of water

4 vegetable bouillon

1/2 tsp. of Spike

1/2 tsp. of thyme

1/2 tsp. of Italian seasoning

1 tbs. of butter (optional)

 

Heat oil over medium flame in large soup pot.  Mince garlic and add to oil.  Chop onion and celery and add to oil.  Stir and saute gently over low heat so that vegetables soften but do not brown.  Chop cauliflower to pieces and add to other vegetables, stir well to coat with oil. 

Add water and bring to a boil.  Add vegetable bouillon and seasonings.  Stir until bouillon dissolves, reduce flame to medium low and simmer, covered, for 20 minutes.  Cool soup slightly and put in a blender–it doesn’t take long to puree cauliflower and it makes the soup creamy. 

Put the pot of soup back on the stove and bring it to a gentle roiling boil.  Add butter and stir.  Serves 3 or 4.

The Ice Cometh

•December 8, 2009 • 1 Comment

 

Woke up to a crystaline world and air that smells new.  The wind is coming hard from the north and beating itself against everything, creating December change. 

I’m eager to bundle up one of these nights soon and stroll Old Town.  Looking forward to Christmas Eve, when the cemetaries stay open all night and fill up with luminarias and families and much love and joy and beauty.

Here’s to all of you in chilly December places:  be cozy and well.  Eat good foods :)

Hot Toddy

•December 7, 2009 • 1 Comment

 

1 stick of cinnamon

honey

fresh juice of one lemon

1/2 cup of water

1 shot of whiskey

 

Hot toddies have helped me through many discomforts.  Some people prefer brandy instead of whiskey. 

Heat the water to boiling, with the stick of cinnamon in it.  I usually let the cinnamon soak for about 5 mintes or so, then remove it.  Add all of the lemon juice and then honey to taste.  The shot of whiskey goes in last.  I heat the toddy again until it’s steaming hot and then I curl up somewhere comfy and sip it until it’s gone.

If you’ve got a cold and feel achey and stuffy, have one of these right before bedtime.  It will knock you out and help you forget about being sick for a while.